@Fubar8338 speaking from my own experiences, life has never been nor ever will be an "Alice In Wonderland" or a "Yellow Brick Road", What breaks us but does not destroy us, makes us stronger as well as wiser to the struggles we have suffered as well as face, and continue to face. If we allow our struggles, difficulties, heartaches, and heartbreaks to defeat us, then life will destroy those who have deemed that they are defeated. I know this to be true, for I have lost one of my older brothers to suicide just over a year and a half ago. Don't give in to defeat, fight the good fight, in the end, your darkness will turn to light again. Take care and stay safe.