hello, my name is felix. i'm a young guy with a lot of issues and i'm asking for the community's help with something. quick trigger warning that this post has brief mentions of intense subjects (/sui) that are relevant to the post. if you have a minute or two i honestly ask that you read through this. it may not be worth it for you, but i am still asking.
for context:
about last june, i was searching up certain words and phrases on spotify for the theme of a playlist, the theme being 'regret'. i looked up 'im sorry' and after awhile of scrolling, i came across a song that would change my life. the song is 'im sorry' by artist masshu. i can almost guarantee none of you have heard of this song or artist; they have a mere 14 followers on spotify and only ever produced 2 tracks.
i won't get into detail, but in more than one moment in my life where i have been very broken, scared, or near to attempting, this song has, quite literally, saved my life. this is the only song i have ever heard that can calm me down from absolutely everything, even something as serious as a suicide attempt. the song has no lyrics, and is barely over a minute long, and this song has been my backbone for almost a year. i cannot properly express how much this means to me.
and very recently, silently, without me noticing for almost a week, the song was taken down from spotify. i only noticed after a little while and i.. i hurt. i hurt so much.
i took to frantically searching the web, forums, spotify help, soundcloud - anything for the song. i didn't want it to be gone. it is not on youtube because the artist is so small, nor is it on soundcloud. i found it here on pandora fairly quickly, but it's not available for playback here either.
i can't think of a time i've felt so desperate. i don't know what happened, why it was taken down, or if i'll ever get to hear it again. but i can say without the slightest shadow of a doubt that this song has changed the course of my life, and i would pay every penny i have to hear it again. i probably seem quite obsessed with this, and truth be told, i kind of am. i am desperate.
again, here are the song credits:
Title: im sorry
Artist: masshu
Writer: Enrique Nuñez
Source: GRID MVMT
^ the source of the song was what baffled me the most, as GRID MVMT is an online watch store. i have no idea what's going on, but i am asking for help. if anyone can help me find the artist or a way to play it again, i would probably cry, and i'm considering looking into payment. this means too much to me for me to just give it up. i'm continuing to dig as deep as i can into the internet to at least find the artist and say thank you for how they've changed my life, but it's time i ask for community help.
IF ANYONE HERE ON PANDORA KNOWS HOW TO FIND THE ARTIST OR GET THE SONG BACK, PLEASE TELL ME!
great thanks to anyone who helps,
felix.
