Every day i woke up I feel a little bit nervous Sometimes my heart shake like plum of drums I can't even control it Fighting with my anxiety its like my life is about to be over, I'm trying not to lose control again Sometimes I think it's gonna come but I'm always right It's like I don't know who I am I just go blank and blind I pray every day for it not to come I even hold my breath to see if I'm really alive Because sometimes I feel like I'm not Like mind is out of space But I think I stay there for too long Saying out loud that I need to get out of here I don't really have someone to hold my hand I'm afraid to ask I don't think there's anything I can do for all of this to go away Here go again I did it again All remember I don't want to feel it again I don't know if you get it because I can't even express myself Cause it hurt, it burn and it's hard I can still feel like I'm spinning around and around in space pressing on my chest To stay alive like everybody else I tried every day not to hold my breath but when I did I was never the same I really don't want to lose control anymore because the world expect me to People expect for me to be patient and take a deep breath in and out But it never work but the monster still came back harder At night I always think I'm going to be ok the next morning but I'm always wrong By: Reldeo   ... View more

Happy Easter to everyone! Anywhere you guys at have fun and enjoy. Stay safe 😍😊   ... View more

Since I was little I had a dream to save the world But my people thought the opposite Why so The way they were thinking Makes me feel unsure about my dream But I didn’t understand why Because I know who I am I know where I came from And I know what I’m capable of I know what I can do and what I cannot do I know is hard right now But I have a mission to accomplish Even though I don’t know how But I know someday my dreams will come true I maybe in the dark right now But I prayed God to help me see the light Before I can’t stop asking myself why me But when I think back why not me And it’s never too late to catch myself again It’s going to be hard and life wasn’t meant to be easy Whenever I felt I’m about to fall All I have to do is reach higher than have never did before And if I really want to get far in life Is to fake it until I make it                                                By: Reldeo Moderator Edit: Format ... View more

Don’t you know that I’m human? Don’t you know I can only take so much? Don’t you want to feel my pain? Don’t you know too much about me already? Don’t you know that I’m too good for you? Don’t you want to stop playing games? Because you haven’t gone nowhere with it Don’t you want to be free like everyone else? Don’t you want your life be in peace for The rest of your life? Don’t you want a change on your life for God Sake? Don’t you want be wise with me? Because I moved on Don’t you want to see your future at least? Don’t you want to put yourself in my  Position to know how it feels like? Don’t you wanna forgive yourself? Because I did Don’t you want to admit that you Put me through hell? But I got out on my own Don’t you know I took all your blames? Just because I did care Don’t you see that I’m not ashamed anymore?      But it’s time to show you that I’m taking my life serious Starting right now                                    By: Falone Jean Louis ... View more

*Why chose to be in the mirror man* Every time I look in the mirror I see a person looking back at me I want to know if that person supposed to be me Because that person looks strange, scary, and different that I can’t even describe And what the hell does that person keep staring at What for? Is something wrong with me? Asking myself where did that person come from? I want to know what this person wants from me Is that person ever going away? It’s like everything I’m doing that person keeps on copying me Only thing I’m so confuse about is why this person can’t never talk to me Like I can’t never hear this person voice behind this thick glass Let’s be real what happened, that person chose to come out What would happen, do you think my life would be different and easier I wonder what kind of place, or where this kind of place this person is living at? In the mirror? Beside the mirror where else does this person even go or what else this person do Does that person have hard life like me? Does that person struggles the way I am right now? Does that person know how it feels to have scars and bruises?                Can that person feel that I want a hug every morning when I wake up from my bad dreams? Can that person give me a hand at least “what are you waiting for?” If that person can’t even move or help me why can that person just stop following me? And stop stalking me in this thick glass they called mirror That sometimes part of me want to break it But when I did it was only me who got hurt and almost bleed to death Even If I tried my hardest to break it That person just stay in one place like nothing never happen Can’t even rescue me at all What does that person even want then?             Why and what that person even doing here behind this glass Why chose to be in the mirror though Like I want to know As soon I fall that person disappear Please come out behind this thick glass whoever you are And show yourself out My dear friend     Poetry by RelDeo ( Falone)Jean Louis ... View more