Every time I hear about suicide or someone that has had their life cut short because of suicide, it brings me back to two different times in my life. The first of course is in October 2019 when my second oldest brother Donnie took his own life. The second time is when I myself was very close of ending my own life because of the broken 💔 I was suffering from losing someone I had loved with all of my heart. By experiencing these two different events in my life this is what I have learned. One, God is real He does exist. I should have died and yet here I am responding to this post and subject. Why God saved me is a question I will perhaps never know the answer to. He saved me from suicide and yet my brother is gone. That something I will never be able to explain. This is what I have also come to know about suicide, when you lose a loved one from suicide you suffer from many afflictions. For one just the loss of that loved one, and then the million questions you fight with every day, why did he not trust me enough to come to me or confide in me? How could I have missed the signs of his depression? Believe me these questions are only the beginning. But it is even harder for me because I was in that state of mind 11 years prior to his passing, I should have been more keen to the signs, I also should have been gone long before his death. For all of you out there you should know first and foremost you are not alone. There is someone that loves and cares about you, even if that person is a counselor that you have never met. He or she are there because they do care, and it just may be someone that has lost a loved one to suicide. Do yourself a favor don't ever give up on hope or give into your despair, because there is someone out there that does care. Take care and stay safe.
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